The man writhing on the ground claws at my leg desperately. Disgusted, I kick savagely at his body.
"Save me..."
As the man formerly known as my accomplice gasps out this last request, I kneel down at his feet. Forcefully, I yank back his head, putting his face so close to mine he can smell my triumph and satisfication. I brandish the knife, dripping with blood, wiping it on his face, enjoying the look of fear and disgust on his face.
"Well, Brandon. I paid the debt for you, went to jail for twenty long years. I lost my freedom, I lost my dignity. When I came out, friends turned their backs on me, and my own family refused to acknowledge me." I laughed mirthlessly, clenching my fist together as the memories brought back wave upon wave of fresh pain. "Yellow ribbon project? I went to find a job, and yet, everyone refused to hire me! They thought I was a serial killer, they thought that once they turned their backs, I would stab them, both metaphorically and literally!" My voice cracked open with raw emotion.
"I'm sorry..." These two words seemed a great deal of torture to Brandon, as blood spurted out of the wide gash on his chest. "I didn't mean to..."
"But you did! You didn't mean to, but you did!" I rounded on him, knelt before him and held the blade to his chest again, cutting the wound open, watching with satisfication as Brandon let out a scream. "You weren't supposed to kill them, we were just suppose to rob them to satisfy the triad leaders. You were the one who killed them, while I was the one who begged for their mercy. And yet, I was the one who paid for your sins in jail, while you got off scot-free!" I clenched my fists, trying to control the wave after wave of anger and cascading down on me.
And then, my mind flew back to her. Although she wasnt the prettiest in the strictest sense, she had a personality that anyone could fall in love with, warm, caring and open. We loved each other, in fact, we engaged and she was in the midst of all the wedding preparations. Although she had objected to the fact that I was part of a triad, she was merely worried for my safety. And then, I had been accused of murder, a sin so great that she had been unable to withstand it. I watched my relationship with her break down and tear apart, I vowed, then, that I would have my revenge.
"Goodbye." I watched in satisfication as Brandon heaved his last, rattling breaths, as his eyes closed, and his hand fell, limp and lifeless.
Strangely, I did not feel any remorse.
I went off @
6:26 AM
my journal, my say.
i let out all my thoughts,
wonderful or bitter,
it's all in here.